a hack artist's life for me.

yes. feeling inadequate these days. everything i've drawn has been shit. and i keep staring at my painting but never working on it.

i've lost a sense of...something. i used to do some good pencil works. layered shading, deep detail, emotion. there was intense passion in my work. but now due to lack of time, i just don't feel like i'm putting my being into my work.

it's not a big deal. i'll never go anywhere with my stuff. i wish i could but i missed my chance. i don't have the time now to go back to college. i certainly couldn't put the hours in that college students do. and i do try, but ever since i had my bad car accident, my motor skills aren't up to par. i was sloppy before then, but i'm even sloppier now.

bah. i just suck